I just wanna...

I really really really wanted to blog about something joyful, something happy, something sweet... but I can't. I really can't.

I don't wanna go back. I really don't wanna go back. I'm supposed to be free... to be liberated... Why must all good things always come to an end. Why must there always be unhappy moments every time after that few days of happy life. I can't take it anymore. I really can't take it anymore. I wish I could voice it out... I know I might feel better after voicing it out but I don't know why. I just can't bring myself to say. Words just roll back into my lungs when they reach my throat. I really need help. I really don't know what I'll do next.


I just wanna be small. really really small. small. small. small. small...
I just wanna die.