feb 29

feb 29 - a very very special day that occurs only once in every four years. and on this very special day, i want to make a BIG shoutout to everyone who ever visits my blog: WHEN THE HELL WILL THAT BLOODY A LEVEL RESULTS BE OUT?!

current state

i'm not feeling better. the giddy spells keep coming on and off as usual. so i actually headed down to see a chinese physician (sinseh) today with my grandmother. the diagnosis: "cold" and weak stomach and intestines. low blood pressure. have to avoid oily, deep fried food, soft drinks or cold desserts, nuts and cookies. then she prescribed a whole list of herbs for me and i have to take it for 2 weeks, 3 times per week, 2 dosage per time.

anyway, met jian xiong on the way back followed by bryan. one's tall and one's handsome. what can i say? ha. perhaps im intermediate ;P. anyway, bryan's working at the student care centre which john used to work.

jian xiong actually reads my blog! haha. at least something which he asked me actually shows he read it closely. right, i've floaters in my eyes, both of them. it's a fact and it's not going to go away. it's rather ironic for there's no cure for it at the moment (hopefully there is in e near future) and it ususally happens to myopic with degrees higher than 500. yep.i jus dun wanna remember those haunting memories of them anymore so dun bother asking me why i developed those stuff for i also don't know.

back to my main post. wanted to blog sth which i didnt get the chance to cos my com crashed a few days ago and i jus cant start it. the problem keeps recurring signalling that perhaps it's time to get a new computer. anyway, i've actually thought through alot, even in my dreams that perhaps if i dun do well this time for the BIG As, it's due to my pure laziness and the lack of self-motivation. but luckily, after pondering over it over the last few days while i was lying in bed, i realised actually deep down in my heart i still want to be a teacher. those pianist thing, singer thing is just a want and not a need. it's just some temporarily thoughts that gets in the way every now and then. so this time if i really really really cannot make it, i'm considering retaking it. it's sth which i must do to achieve what i wanted. something which is practical and of use.

something that happened today made me even more sure of it. the auntie over at the counter at the physician centre actually said she had a daughter my age and she was so happy when she heard i went to a jc over a poly. i just found what she said was so impactful. she kept encouraging me to go to university. she beemed from ear to ear and my ah ma was like so proud of it. haha. yep. so from now on, whatever i do, i must put in my 101% for i know there are ppl who still encourages and cares for me out there who feels happy for me even when they dun say so. i must not let my family members down. GAMBETTE, EUGENE , GAMBETTE!

dizzy spell's back. got to go. :)

stomachache

i'm too weak to care about the world around me. didnt sleep well last night. had runs 5 times today and i almost fainted in the toliet. still feeling jelly and nausea. didnt go to work today. i need more rest.

stomachache

i'm still feeling very very very uncomfortable. very weak and giddy and my limbs are jelly. i can feel my intestines contracting every now and then. i have to take a rest again. just hope i'll recover soon. :(

stomachache

i had a very very bad stomachache since yesterday, a suspected case of enteritis coupled with nausea, fever, stomach pain. but the sh*t just refuse to come out even after i've taken some diarrhoea medication. i'm still feeling giddy and my abdomen feels weird, like the intestines are jammed up with bowel.

i've read in this month's reader's digest that belly aching could be due to a number of reasons and one of the most interesting reasons that i suspect i have is stress connection. "blame the enteric nervous system" which "has its own muscles, nerves and neurotransmitters, which tell the gut to move its content through the body...when you're stressed, there are an abnormal number of signals firing away. that can lead to discomfort." Reader's Digest February 2008

true enough, i've not been having good sleep these few nights. i just can't get myself to sleep. may be i'm just too worried over the release of the A level results. i've also been dreaming so much these days which means my sleep patterns are interrupted and i still feel lethargic even though i've slept till 10 am. T.T
let's just hope that that day would come quickly for 长痛不如短痛. the earlier we know, the faster we can plan the next step to take in life.

lost friend

i lost a friend 2 days ago. someone whom i've been working with for the last 2 months. someone who is always so cheerful and optimistic, who doesn't get angry even if you scream at him. muddle-headed he was, like a fly who lost its head.

but now, he's gone. he's never going to come back. the entire electrical department which he was once in charge was usually silent that day. the once fun and lively atmosphere was filled with sorrow, despair and agony when everyone recieved the appalling news. nobody, including myself, could accept the fact that that 26 year old chap would leave us just like that. but this could also be a relieve for him as he is free from the sufferings which he would have had if he were to live.

as for the department, everyone still had to keep it running even though there is nobody in-charge for the moment. as for me, all i could do was to help them to the best ability when i'm at work. that's all i can say for now.


梁静茹
生命中不可承受的轻





让耳机　循环这频率
反覆超重低音　震动著宁静
挡风玻璃里　爱成了蒙太奇
我　哼著我自己　的叹息

只是爱与被爱的比例
不是爱或不爱的问题
如果明天还有好天气　都已经跟你没关系

你让我梦见了太美的梦　生命中不可承受的轻
你　证明了每一颗流星　都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以　所以了这一百年孤寂
你　洒下默默无言的雨　一滴
一滴一滴一滴滴　遗忘的泪滴

偶阵雨　偶尔会天晴
还好星光熠熠　好心的提醒
一个人追寻　一个人的和平
我　看见我自己　的天际

爱真的需要一点勇气
就看我们敢不敢忘记
我和彩虹最短的直径　也不一定没有你不行

你让我梦见了太美的梦　生命中不可承受的轻
你　证明了每一颗流星　都遥不可及
你因为了我每个所以　所以了这一百年孤寂
你　洒下默默无言的雨　一滴
一滴一滴一滴滴　遗忘的泪滴

就让我狠狠的加速前进　脱离你所给我的梦境
再　零点零零一公里　就可以清醒
我决定不再等你决定　我决定不再当局者迷
我决定属於我自己的黎明
距离你一世纪　下一个世纪

shocking news

i'm shocked. stunned. out of words.
some incident happened today. and made me realise something.
that looks can be decieving.
appearance can never be trusted.
i need to learn. to differentiate the good from e bad.
and not be so foolish anymore.

2nd post

had a wonderful time meeting with old frens over a simple dinner. the smell of the melted cheese still lingers in my mouth. will rmb the slap cos i said e wrong thing. and e story of e mandarin orange. and e talk over e short, dark and "teh" girl whom not many ppl can stand.

on the side note, i'm willing to accept criticism and change for the better. it's time to be more "man". promise i'll show improvement the next time u see me.

“Criticism may not be agreeable, but it is necessary. It fulfils the same function as pain in the human body. It calls attention to an unhealthy state of things.” -Sir Winston Churchill

insonmia

i had (bad) insomnia last night. i laid down at 11pm but didnt sleep. used com until 3am. still wide awake. then laid down on bed again and twist and turn till 7am.couldn't take it anymore so just woke up and went for morning jog. too long didnt exercise liao today too vigorous until almost fainted. got that kind of vomit feeling. but im still damn energertic. what's wrong with me???

A level results

"you are the last and worse in the class"
"i don't know what to do with you. i'm gonna send u to MOE..."

and i woke up. nightmare.
dreaming of A level results release day is indeed very torturing. :(

"anticipation kills"

kbox

omgosh. kbox was so uber-fun today! got to scream my hearts out and sing until lose control. don't believe? ask jas. haha. im e king of e world...and a humourous guy too. :P

"Supercalifragilisticexpialidoceous"

spop hurray!

要写好歌曲，华文基础要打得好，不能只停在交谈的阶段，那个是不够的。
was watching spop hurray ytday and this sentence (or sth along that line) said by xu huan liang actually resounded in my mind. true enough, my chinese standard had dropped so much ever since i last took my A level chinese paper. scoring an A for chinese in singapore doesn't mean anything at all. i still feel i have much room for improvement and im still not up to the mark yet. perhaps, more hard work is still needed before i can try song-writing or even script-writing. i don't know, maybe im still an ordinary boy still waiting to be founded, like everybody else. nobody knows.

"unleash your potential"

dreams

okay.. i know it's hard to believe.. but i actually gave my future a careful thought..
I FINALLY HAVE DREAMS!! hahaha.. although it's still quite far-fetched from now.. ahem..

if i get into uni..
i'll be a language teacher

if i dun get into uni..
i'll be a singer cum pianist or actor

okay. no laughing pls. even though i croak when i sing but still... it's e passion that keeps one going.. woah~ well, that's my chinese new year resolution for this yr.

"the future belongs to those who see possibilities before they become obvious..."

quiz

You are 11:59 a.m.

You are late-sleepy relaxation, the half-awake moment when you realize it's morning, but you don't have to get up, because there's no place you have to be. You are that cozy spot under the covers where everything feels temporarily perfect, even if you know you'll eventually have to wiggle out and start the day. Maybe you're the artistic type, who doesn't function well on a normal schedule. Sleep's important to you, and you like the freedom of sleeping as late as you want (especially since that is closely related to the freedom to stay up as late as you want). You like to roll out of bed, put on some comfy clothes, and get a laid back start to the day. If not everything on your list gets accomplished, no worries. Your only priority is having no priorities – you just want to take things at a slow, mellow pace.

cbox deleted

right. my cbox acct got deleted somehow. argh.
-check out my new tagboard instead.

*thanks l for e comment! it brightened up my day :)

CNY shopping spree

hihihihihihi
omgosh. i feel so high and crazy today! damn damn damn damn damn happy. it's like that kinda over the moon into outer space kinda feeling.

went out with l and c today. omgosh. they're jus so fun to be with. haha. eat,shop,eat,shop,drink non-stop. hahaha. and shopping spree~ i finally got my new year clothes. the 2 experts chose them for me. we jus buy and buy and buy and buy. slash and slash my card non-stop. i haven't had so much fun since secondary school.

i didnt actually went to calculate the total cost so much until i came home. i was like oh my goodness. $206.70 on new year clothes?!?! surprsingly, my mum didnt scream at all. perhaps cos i used my own money on these stuff. im totally deadbeat but i thk it was a really meaningful day i had with 2 great friends. hahaha.

anyway, here's a breakdown of how i spent today:

collar white shirt $55.90
black long sleeve $39.00
a pair of jeans $42.00
a belt $39.90
a pair of shoes $29.90

subtotal: $206.70

i bought the wrong shoes. the design was ok but it jus cant suit the shirts i bought. have to look for a pair of bermudas soon to go with it. :)

and i dun forget my family as well!

for mum:
1 bottle of glucosamine $20.20
1 bottle of OLAY© Total effects cream $24.30

subtotal: $44.50

for dad: $50

grand total: $301.20

i thk it was all worth it. im a happy lark today!! woohoo~!! i didnt know spending can be so cool. wahahaha. looks like i have to work harder to earn more money from now on. i can do it!

*special thanks to l for inviting me along. you're a great pal. :)

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im totally disguisted by how they "lelong-ed" my product.
-argh. thou shalt not talk anymore about it.

elated

elated! :)