helplessness

things just aren't going right for me ever since the start of the month. worse, the misunderstandings are just getting out of hand.

the more i try and explain the worse they become, the more misunderstandings surface. everytime i try to do something right, it keeps turning out wrong. and everytime things turn out wrong, i don't even know the reason what i've done wrong and how and what can i do to salvage the situation.

i was hoping that by letting things to pass, it'd eventually clear itself of those misunderstandings but then again, it didn't. and it's making my life miserable, not because i did sth wrong but bcos i jus can't seem to figure out what went wrong and why am i caught in such a mind-bogging situation.

I am very angry but I don't know how to retaliate or speak up for myself. i just don't want to create even more trouble by doing that. My dad wanted me to tell the guy of straight in the face for saying the wrong stuff but I just didn't know how to speak when I'm in front of him. I mean imagine that you've been wronged for being gay just because u sms him too many times to clarify e situation. "from the frequency and tone ur sending sms, it make it seems like ur treating me as a bf cos only couples do that" - oh, what the hell. i don't know what i've done to get into all these but i really feel it's very very very unfair towards me.

can someone teach me what i should do?