what i want in life

i guess it's always good to have someone older who looks after you. like an elder brother or sth. i never have that chance though. geez.

university talks weren't of much help. i'm reluctant myself to actually get into university. i always thought that by entering a jc, there were 2 extra years for me to think what i want to become. but that 2 years wasn't of much help either. i figured out recently that i've been running away from reality ever since i've decided to get into jc and im back to square one. the thought of living an aimless life for the last 18 years scares me. my future had been arranged by my parents ever since i was young so much so that i've lost the instinct to make my own life choices.

many decisions that i tried making turned out worse than i thought and i've been desensitised to make yet another decision on my own.. when can i ever get out of my own defenses to achieve what i want in life? i don't know.

perhaps another adam khoo workshop could help...


我不想再当一只没主见的井底之蛙了。。。